Tonight I went and spent some time with Bethie and the kiddos. There was a birthmom who wanted to ask us a few questions so we gladly said yes. Whenever I get to talk about the whole adoption process and all of that I realize how lucky I was to find the Allmans and to have the relationship that I have with them. Here are a few pictures I got. Mr. Milo is missing in action because he was playing at Nana's.

Gosh she just melts.my.heart

I told her to smile and this is what I get. Love the kiss face Miss Malia!

I'm in LOVE  with this picture. Seriously.

Beth your kids are the cutest. Ever. Thanks for the fun night!

Sick. Sick. Sick.

Oh boy have I been sick. I went to work on Sunday not feeling too hot and ended up leaving after and hour and a half. I have been coughing for the past 3 days now and my throat is completely raw. The headache has gotten a little bit better thanks to ibuprophen and the nyquil has helped me sleep which is great, but I just need to get feeling better so I can get back to life and school. I have, however, made my time in bed productive. Check these out :)

What do you think?? Anyone want some? I think they're pretty stinkin cute if I may say so myself :)

Also, I've been applying for a few part time positions down here with IHC so that I don't have to be driving up to Heber 3 days a week and just do one day a week there or so. I'm hoping one of them works out but we'll have to see :) Other than that everything is the same old same old!

I feel bad having another downer post to share with you guys. But then I was thinking, I'm not perfect. No one is. I read a friends post the other day about how tough things are for her right now and I actually found it really refreshing. I don't want to find myself only talking about positive things and not writing about who I really am and how life really is. I've got a feeling that this is going to be a little bit of a rambling session but you know, those are pretty therapudic sometimes. Lets begin.

I think that if I start with my Facebook status you'll understand a lot about my problem.

Dear St George, Work, and School,
I hate that you are making it so that the time I'm not with Nick far exceeds the time that I am. Seriously its getting a bit tough to handle. Newlyweds should feel smothered, not lonely. At least I think that's how its supposed to work. Anyways, maybe you could lighten up a tiny before I start forgetting what my own husband looks like. Just think about it.
            Sincerely,
                  Little miss discouraged

And there you have it. I am someone who needs lots of quality time with my husband I guess. Call me crazy. I can't handle this being away from eachother. Nick left Wednesday for St. George to umpire. He'll be back tomorrow afternoon but of course, I won't be there. I work till midnight. I'll come home, kiss a sleeping husband that I haven't hardly seen this week goodnight, and fall asleep. Then we'll wake up, do a little cleaning, eat, and go to work. We'll both be back around 11 which means it's bedtime again and on to another packed schedule week. I know that this is how it has to be right now for Nick and I to both accomplish our career goals and to have the lifestyle we want for our family together but sometimes it's really hard to keep that in mind. Nick works so hard for us and I don't want to discredit that in any way but I just wish we could match our schedules up when he works so hard.

I would have done anything to get to go to St. George this weekend. It wouldn't have been for the baseball, or the warm weather, or the chance to swim outside, but just because it would be away. I feel like everyone around me is having fun or at least traveling beyond a 40 mile radius and I'm just here doing the same dang thing every.freakin.day. If you are thinking "Well Sadey, that's life" then I have to disagree. I think the people that are truly happy are the ones who can be spontaneous. Want to know what my spontaneous has been lately? It's so lame. Having dinner planned in my head then deciding I don't want to cook and grabbing Cafe Rio. Or the other day I even spent some money on a random scrub shopping spree. You know, the scrubs I wear to work. My shopping trip can't even escape work!

All I have to say is that I owe my sanity this weekend to the Palmers. Wednesday night, as you all might already be aware of because you read about it, I was super lonely. Those two invited me over for some hamburgers and a little CSI. Just what I needed. Then the next day I met up with Sarah for some jewlery shopping and Spoon Me (as in the frozen yogurt place in Provo). That Dulce de Leche topped with a whole carton of raspberries topped with mini chocolate chips topped with caramel was just the right thing. You might be thinking calories. I'm thinking I want more :)

I know things will bet better soon. Okay, I don't know that things will get better soon, but I do know that things will get better someday. And I think I can live with that. Sometimes I just need to feel upset and bummed and not act like things are okay all the time. Because that just isn't real life.

I'll get out of this ruthole soon (Yes, I just made up a word while I was typing and I'mpretty sure it's aweseome. It kinda sounds like butthole which makes it more funny, don't you think? Sidetracked? I think so! ) Sorry about that ... Anyways, I'll get out of this ruthole and life will go on but for now, I just feel like owning how I feel and blogging it of. Thanks for hanging in there with me. This Little Miss Discouraged is off to bed. Until next time!

One or the Other

Hi folks. Today was a miserable and wonderful day all in the same time.

Miserable because after my night shift I had a nursing midterm off absolutly NO sleep.

Miserable because I got a bad score.

Wonderful because I found out my score was going to go up because of computer error.

Miserable because I got some really bad news.

Wonderful because I had my best friend and example to talk to over the phone.

Miserable because I was so tired and the more I cried the more emotional I got.

Wonderful because my husband picked me up off the bed and took me to the place to eat that I crave the most.

Wonderful because he had me laughing so hard I was crying, happy tears.

Wonderful because I realized again, for the 300th time, how lucky I really am.

Miserable because I had another test, microbiology this time.

Wonderful because I got a better grade that I thought I would!

Wonderful because I got picked up by my handsome husband with a smile and a hug because he is proud of me.

Wonderful because he gave me a boquet of my favorite roses and a much needed pep talk.

Miserable because Nick is on his way to Mesquite to umpire some baseball till Saturday.

Wonderful because I've got such awsesome friends that know I need a hug by just looking at me.

Wonderful because Scott and Sarah invited me over for dinner so I don't have to sit at home in the quiet.

Wonderful because no matter how bad or hard things get I've got so much love around me, so much love to give, and so much to look forward to.

I am only one, but I am one. I cannot do everything, but I can do something. And I will not let what I cannot do interfere with what I can do. -Edward Everett Hale

P.F. Changs

Does anyone else love P.F. Changs like I do? Seriously it's an addicion! What problem? :P Well, I found their MONGOLIAN BEEF recipe and it is delicious! I've made it with friends once and I made it for Nick and I again tonight. We seriously cant get enough! Since I love it so much I'm definietly going to share ....

THIS!

Okay I'll do you one better than just a picture. How about the recipe!? I followed this exact recipe and it fed Nick and I perfectly. We tripled it when a friend and I made it together for our double date and we even had some for leftovers.

2 tspn vegetable oil
½ tspn minced ginger
1 tbsp chopped garlic
½ cup soy sauce
½ cup water
¾ cup dark brown sugar
1 cup vegetable oil
1 lb flank steak
¼ cup cornstarch
2 large green onions

Make the sauce by heating 2 tspn of vegetable in a medium saucepan over med/low heat. Don't get the oil too hot or you'll get a major spatter when adding the other liquids and totally burn yourself (I tell you this from experience!) Add ginger and garlic to the pan and quickly add the soy sauce and water before the garlic scorches. Dissolve the brown sugar in the sauce, then raise the heat to about medium and boil the sauce for 2 to 3 minutes or until the sauce thickens. Remove it from the heat.

Slice the flank steak against the grain into ¼" thick bite-size slices. If they're too think they're too chewy and don't taste as yummy.

Dip the steak pieces into the cornstarch to apply a very thin dusting to both sides of each piece of beef. Let the beef sit for about 10 minutes so that the cornstarch sticks.

As the beef sits, heat up one cup of oil in whatever you used for the sauce
Heat the oil over medium heat until it's nice and hot, but not smoking (Again, the burn issue)

Add the beef to the oil and saute for just two minutes, or until the beef just begins to darken on the edges. Make sure you don't cook it through, as you'll be cooking it later. Stir the meat around a little so that it cooks evenly. After a couple minutes, use a large slotted spoon to take the meat out and onto paper towels, then pour the oil out of the wok or skillet.

This is usually when I start cooking the rice cause my cooker takes about 20 minutes to cook.

Put the pan back over the heat, dump the meat back into it and simmer for one minute. Add the sauce, cook for one minute while stirring, then add all the green onions. Let it simmer for a little while and enjoy your P.F. Changs deliciousness!

Update In Pictures

Here are those pictures I promised I'd take in my last post :)

Here is a little bit of what I've been doing with our apartment:

Here is the new gi-normus love-sac we bought from one of Nick's
friends. It's my new favorite spot! I also got some red curtains which I really love.
I know the Jazz flag doesn't exactly match but that's Nicks department :)

This is a sign I made out of some wood I got at Home Depot and had them cut it to size
 for me. I bought a vinyl quote to put on it that says "May our home be filled with laughter,
 family and friends and the life togetherness brings." Makes the white walls look a little less
institutional and a little more like home.

This I made from another cut out of wood from Home Depot and some wood letters I painted.

Remember that picture collage project I was working on from my family room? i posted it forever ago and never updated you on how it turned out so here it is:

TaDa! Still need to print a few pictures but I think it's fun. I love looking at all
the fun we have together and with our family.

Here is some of the crochet from my blog and the next 2 are blankets I've made lately.

A baby blanket that I love love

This blanket is wrinkled up because it's too big to even fit in a picture! It's made
of 62- 12inch squares. Took me for-EVER but i'm proud of it!

I'll end this picture overload with a few more random things I'm excited about.

I sold some of my scrubs on ebay and used the money to buy these new CUTE scrubs :)

My handsome hubby surprised me with these and I LOVE them!

Still in love with these gadgets. SO glad we decided to buy these.

You know what the best thing about life is though?

Life with this guy. Bliss.



I Have To Admit Something ...

I have to admit the real reason that I haven't been blogging. It's because of my camera. I hate having post after post of no pictures. I really do have time to blog, let's be honest. Not a bunch of time, but enough time. So now that I have come out with my excuse I think I should get past it and start this blogging thing. I always want to remember this time in Nick and I's life together and this is the best way that I know how. So here goes with a new update and I will hopefully keep it up. No, not hopefully, I WILL keep it up! Will is the word. Enough of the rambling, on to real life!

How about what's been going on with our lives. When I sit and think about what to write about I feel like we have been doing everything and nothing at the same time.

I have been crazy busy with school. Sucky thing is is that I spend hours and hours for microbiology and just a few hours on my nursing classes. I'm not majoringin micro right? Ugh. I'm doing okay, but I'll be SO grateful when I get through this semester. As far as the nursing classes go I'm really liking what I'm learning. Guess that's a good thing since that is what I'm planning on doing with the rest of my life huh :) My first 3 clinicals were at the Utah Valley Specialty Hospital in Orem which is pretty much an ICU unit outside of a main hospital. I got to see a lot and learn alot about things I haven't seen much of like traches, ventilators, constant tube feedings, severe wounds, etc. Probably sounds gross to most of you but I love being able to learn new things with patient care. I'm feelilng more and more like a nurse. That's probably due to work too. I've been trained in IV starts now which is really cool to do. I'm still learning all the tricks of the trade but it's been aweseome to do as well as I have with them. I'm training in the ER now which is awseome for the same reason I liked the specialty hospital. Seeing new things and learning how to multi-task with more patients and more things to get done. I'm also helping with deliveries a lot more and in the nursery on my night shifts. The labor and delivery unit is definietly the favorite part of my job. I've been making hats for every baby I take care of in the nursery while I'm with them. It's something to do and it makes me feel so good to be able to make the moms feel like she and the baby are special. They know we do deliveries all the time but to make them feel like they're important individually is exactly why I chose the profession that I have. It's hard to keep that mindset sometimes when the floor is crazy, but for the most part, it is the reason I go to work.

Nick is working full time while juggling school. He is getting aweseome grades and has been putting so much work into his classes this semester. He really amazes me. I'm so impressed at how hard he is working. The longer we are married the more opportunities I have to see what an amazing man he really is. Sometimes I feel like he is better at keeping the house together than I am. And he really probably is. I can't tell you how many times I come home and he's done all the dishes or there is laundry folded on our bed and loads in the wash. He is such a sweetheart and does so much sometimes I worry that I'm not keeping up. I am definitely a blessed and lucky girl for having him in my life.

A few weeks ago Nick and I decided to go to a young married BYU ward instead of the family ward we moved into when we first got married. The people in our old ward were great but we just didn't feel like it was a good fit for us. We've only been to our new ward once so we haven't got a complete feel but I think we'll like it a little bit more. The ward should be called a young-new-baby-addition BYU ward instead of young-married ward but ya know,that's how it goes here in Provo I guess. Good thing is thoguh it's not making me baby hungry. It's great birth control realizing that I am SO not ready for that next phase of life. I love having Nick all to myself when I come home and just being us. Married life is so great. You're probably going to think I'm being all mushy by saying this but really, it is! It is so surreal to me sometimes to come home from school, start dinner, have my husband come home from school, and eat dinner together as a family. I've also made it my project between studying and work to make our apartment feel like it's our little home. I think I'm just about there. This week I almost finished our family room. I'll have to upload pictures this week so you all can see what our apartment actually looks like now instead of the shell of an apartment it looks like in the other pictures I uploaded earlier.

My other project I have been working on is crochet. Call me grandma or laugh if you must, but it's been pretty fun to pick up the old hobby. I've got a bunch of projects I've finished and a few new ones I'm working on. I even set up a website for it and if you haven't looked already then you are lamespice! It's www.sadeyssite.blogspot.com. Nothing crazy, but some pretty stinkin cute stuff if I may say so myself!

Well, if you have made it this far into this post you are a trooper! If this doesn't make sense then I blame it on me being at work at 4AM. It actually feels like 3AM thanks to daylight savings today. Most of you might have been complaining because you lost an hour of sleep, but I love daylight savings because that means I get done with work an hour early. Aweseome! :) Thanks for hanging in there for those of you that read this lame-o blog anymore.

My goal for tomorrow? Bust out my camera and take some pictures! Just you wait, I'll do it. Will being key word remember? :)