The last few days have been a whirlwind of events and I’ll try to remember it all!
Well, to start from the beginning … For a long time throughout Nick and I’s marriage I had been having pretty severe pelvic pain off and on. In February we decided to start taking it more seriously and figure out what was really causing the problem because sooner rather than later Nick and I would be starting our family. Long story short, after many tests and even a surgery we decided that the only option we really had left was to try to take my IUD out to see if that would fix the problem, and it did! Once getting that taken out I decided that I felt ready to have a baby. I felt like it was the right time to start thinking about our little family. I didn’t get back on any other medications after that and let nature take its course. My biggest reason was that I worried that my IUD had cause problems with my ability to bear children and that I would have a hard time conceiving. And that scared me to death.
Nick and I went a few months without conceiving which didn’t have me worried but didn’t calm my fears either. (This is where the story gets exciting!)
September 13, 2012: I was laying in bed checking a few things on my phone like I always do before I go to bed and pulled up my period/ovulation calender. To my suprise I was a week and a half late! I couldn’t believe it! Usually I am so on top of knowing my dates and such but I’d just started my new job as a Labor and Delivery nurse the week before and things had been crazy! I turned to Nick and told him ‘Babe, I’m totally late.’ He looked at me and said ‘Yep, it’s sure late! Time for bed?’ I stared back at him and stated a little more directly ‘No. Like I’m late. Like period late.’ He said he was sure it’d start tomorrow or something since we have had so many false alarms in the past two years he thought that this was just another one. I thought I felt that way too until once I fell asleep I woke up at midnight, then again at 1:15, then 3:30 (which at that point I seriously considered just driving to Walmart right then and there so I could get my negative test and get some sleep finally!). Nick left for work at 6:45 and after laying in bed for a few minutes realizing that sleep wasn’t going to happen until I got my answer I rolled out of bed, threw on some sweats, grabbed my keys, and off to Walmart I went.
I bought my test and realizing there was no way I could wait to take this test, or wait to tell Nick for that matter, I decided to take both into my own hands. I texted Nick and asked him if he wanted me to bring him breakfast at work since I couldn’t fall back to sleep. He of course accepted.
So off I went to Macey’s for some donuts. But not without taking a detour to the ladies room first. Yep, I took my pregnancy test in the grocery store bathroom. Don’t judge me! This girl clearly has zero patience! So I go through the whole procedure, put on the lid, and just stare at that test. After a few minutes I disappointedly sighed, put it back in the package, and went out to do what I’d come here to get in the first place. Stupid donuts. After that I headed to grab Nick a 32oz Pepsi because duh, who doesn’t want a fountain Pepsi their donuts at 7:30 in the morning! After running in to get his drink I decided to look at the test again. I couldn’t even believe my eyes! TWO LINES! One was dark and the first was more faint but there was definitely TWO LINES! I immediately started to shake. I couldn’t even believe it! I started laughing and smiling and checking the stick again then closing my eyes and laughing again! I raced over to Nick’s work and tried to act completely calm and normal. (Psh! Like that could happen!! TWO LINES!!) Nick got in the car and gave me a kiss. He asked me a few questions which now I can’t remember and quite frankly I probably didn’t answer them. I couldn’t stop smirking! He could tell I was acting weird and asked me what was going on. Then I eloquintly stated ‘We may or may not be having a baby!’ His face was priceless! Sheer surprise and sudden terror all mixed in one! The look I’m sure anyone coming out of the gas station saw slapped on my face when I looked at the test for the second time. We talked for a little while longer until he had to get back to work. All we could say to eachother was ‘Can you believe it this?!’ and ‘Is this real?!’
When I got home I called my OB to ask them where to go from here. She told me to take another test in a few days to be sure but a false positive was impossible to have unless I was taking a medication which contained HCG. She asked me about the date of my last period and then kindly informed me that my due date was going to be May 23rd. Holy moses! MY DUE DATE!? It was completely surreal. She told me to call back after I’d taken my second pregnancy test and they would schedule me for my 8 week appointment.
After that phone call I was FINALLY able to fall asleep for a little bit. The rest of the day involved texts and phone calls from Nick and exchanging many more ‘I can’t believe this!’ and ‘We are so blessed’ conversations.
At around noon my friend Sarah called me freaking out happy. I had sent her a picture of the pregnancy test asking if the fainter line counted. I could tell by the screaming and hooraying that it did! We talked for awhile and acted like giddy school girls on the phone. Nick and I weren’t going to tell anyone but our family for a while just in case something happens with the baby but I was glad to have a girl that could show her excitement and squeal over the phone with me. I needed it.
The rest of that day I was on cloud 9. I was all of the sudden carrying the most precious cargo I could have ever imagined. I found myself dodging my daily soda and drinking glass after glass of water. I made dinner for Nick and I and headed off to work from 6 till midnight. Work was SO busy and I ran my little buns the entire shift but aside from that all I could think of was my little peanut inside of me and how much I love that little one already.
September 14th: Nick and I went to Chilis for lunch with Kelly, Mollie, and Cooper. After munching on some chips and salsa I had a quick bout of the barfies. I jumped up to the bathroom, bent over the toilet, and returned to the table. All I could munch on after that was mashed potatoes. And oh were they delicious (mashed potatoes and vanilla ice cream have been my cravings so far) After lunch Kelly and Nick went to a truck pull and us girls went shopping. When we got in the car Mollie asked me if I was feeling okay cause I was acting a little off. I looked at her with as blank of a stare that I could muster and said I was totally fine! She looked right back at me and said ‘Whatever, you’re pregnant!’ Bah! She totally guessed it! When I asked her how in the world she knew she reminded me how she gets paid to read people. Shoulda known! We finished out the afternoon shopping at Home Goods and imagining all the ways we could redecorate our homes. While we were at Home Goods/ TJ Max in Salt Lake I decided how we were going to tell my family we were expecting. I 4 gender neutral onesies and individually wrapped each of them. Then I just had to wait until Sunday.
September 15th: My dad was headed or Albuquerque for a business trip that afternoon so we did an early lunch at 12 with my family. When we got there I gave Mom, Dad, Taylor, and Savannah each a present and told them I wanted to get them all a little something for helping me the past through years from school and everything. They opened them at the same time and all reacted in their own way. Mom said ‘I knew it!’ and laughed. Dad and Taylor being the mellow men that they are just smiled from ear to ear. Savannah jumped out of her chair, gave me a hug, and said ‘I’m so happy!’ over and over again. It was the cutest! After the lunch we headed up to Heber to tell his mom. After talking small talk for what felt like forever Nick finally told him mom she was going to be a grandma again. She was so excited! She had to ask if we were being for real! haha She was shocked to say the least. After that we headed over to Jody’s apartment to hang out for a while. We told him and Haley while we were there. Finally we ended the night making a few phone calls to Ryan, Erin, and Maddy. Everyone was so excited for us!
Now that I’ve got the ‘here’s what happened’ part out of the way I’m going to get to what I really want this blogging to be about. This is a place for me to write to my sweet little one.
09/20/2012
Dear Poppy Seed,
I’m calling you poppy seed this week because that’s exactly what you are! The size of a poppy seed! It is so incredible to me that I can love something so tiny so much. When I found out we were going to have a Baby Chadwick soon I couldn’t believe it! I couldn’t contain my excitement! I have to admit, the idea of it is still a little scary to me, but I’m so grateful and blessed to finally be able to become a mother.
I’ve only known about you for a week but I find myself constantly thinking about you and things I can do to keep you growing healthy and strong. I have been trying to eat healthier and keep up with my exercise habits. Your dad has been having to basically drag me to the gym but once I get there it makes me feel so much better! I’ve stopped taking all of my medicine except for my vitamins so that I don’t hurt you in any way. It’s a little easier said than done because your Momma has asthma really bad (something I HOPE you don’t get from me) and I’m getting short of breath a little easier but I’m still taking it easy to get you all the things you need to grow. Speaking of growing, apparently you think that me eating mashed potatoes will help you grow big and strong lately because I just can’t get enough of those! You haven’t made momma very sick yet which makes me one happy girl! My one complaint is that you won’t let me sleep through the night anymore! I have always been a great sleeper. Maybe even too much of a great sleeper, but now I wake up what feels like a million times a night and can’t sleep in past 9! Yesterday I actually slept in until 10:15 (which used to be my norm!) and it felt so great! If you could just maybe let me get a little sleep as time goes on I wouldn’t complain one bit! :)
I know that you and I have a lot of hanging out to do before I get to actually get to meet you but I want you to know how excited I am to meet you. I’ve prayed for you for a long time. I’ve prayed that whenever my Heavenly Father decided to let me be a mother that he would help me to be strong and raise you in a loving and happy home. I pray that I can teach you what you need to know and help you to grow into the strong, talented, and beautiful person I know you are destined to become. We love you so much already little poppy seed.
Love always,
Momma
P.S. I have been so excited for you to come along I’ve been buying and storing baby clothes for years! I can’t wait to see you in them! Today while I was at Costco to get groceries I even bought a big box of diapers and another box of wipes. As I’m sure you’ll learn when you get older, your Momma is a very big planner! Since I don’t know if I can call you my little man or my little miss lately I’ll have to buy all the practical stuff for now! Diapers, wipes, crib, you know, the works. I think all that shopping stuff is starting to stress your Dad out a little bit but hey, it’s what I do! :)
